Friends

Why is it that most of my friends seem to leave me when I screw up just once? Aren't friends supposed to stay with you no matter what?
It's not easy finding good friends, and it's even harder keeping them. It just doesn't seem fair that you can't have good friends be there for you.
Yes I am talking out of experience. I know not everyone is this way, I just feel like I have no one to talk to anymore.
Last night I went to the church I usually go to on Wednesday nights, but haven't gone to for a while. And because i got into a fight with one of my friends there a little over a month ago he still isn't talking to me and he won't even look at me. And because of this it made me really sad and lonely because no one else there talks to me really. So I was the little emo girl sitting in the corner waiting for someone to notice me and come sit by me. No one did. The whole time I kept trying to talk and answer questions, but it was weird because it made it even more noticeable by myself.
Maybe it is just me and maybe I overreacted. But I can't help the way it made me feel.
Now I'm not trying to complain and be whiny and bratty because not everything went my way, I'm not usually like this.
I just want people to read this and think about their friends and how that kid in the corner must feel when they look around and see everyone laughing and having fun. Everyone has someone except that one person. How would that make you feel?
It's no fun being the new kid or the shy kid or the kid that just doesn't belong. I should know at my new church (the one i go to on Sunday mornings) I'm the new kid. So every Sunday I sit by myself and look around and wish someone would come and talk to me. And again I'm not trying to be whinny but blogs are made so you can complain right? Right!
Just think about it next time you see a kid by themselves. Okay?
Now I'm going on way too much.
More later

So

I was talking to one of my friends the other night
and he started talking about drugs
and stuff
and im like soooo not into that
because it pretty much ruined my life
and i got all emotional
and i got all mad and was like "you shouldnt do that, its bad for you adn bad for people around you. And it could make a huge differance in how you act."
yeah it was
weird
i guess
it just made me think about stuff when i was little and stuff
so i went to bed and was like all sad and stuff
D:

anyway
So yesterday i was soo super bored but all this week i dont have school very long because im helping my grandma decorate her house for christmas
its fun but yesterday her christmas tree bit me so i have scratches all over my arms
and i was all tired and my back hurt


but i finally got sleep, i haevnt been able to sleep well for the last few nights. and when i finally fell asleep at 2 in the morning i would have a bad dream and wake up and not be able to get back to sleep
but last night
i went to bed at 11 and slept till 8
wooo!
im soo hyper now

more later

My Twilight Review

So, I saw Twilight at the midnight showing last night. Well I guess it was the 12:01 showing but whatever. Anyway, it was full! Mostly teenage girls of course, but there was some guys (I counted 9 altogether!) And some adult women, okay, alot of adult women. When the previews started alot of people screamed, then when the trailer for Harry Potter started more people screamed (OMG! it looks so good im so super excited) then when the movie started ever MORE people screamed(you could hear like every teenage girl and even some adults im sure) But people mostly screamed when Edward first came out (sighs dreamily).
Okay now to my review. I thought it was okay. Deffiantly not as good as the book but we all knew that was gonna happen. It was just too short and not enough in there. I loved the actors they all did great (even bella) The looks Edward and Jacob gave eachother were priceless. I just thought they couldve put more in the scenes because some of them looked like they had been cut off. Also they should have shown a very important scene and they didn't. But the sparkle was good (it made my heart pitter-patter) And the fight scene was okay, but some of the special effects coulda been alot better, like with the running. It showed his legs moving and it all in slowish motion, they couldve just made it like a streak running through. And some of the parts were way too corny. And they didnt put things where they were supposed to go.
I would rate it about a 6 out of 10

Update

Omg!
I haven't written in forever!
Oh well, I just decided to write all the sudden.
Nothing new is really going on in my life, I saw Twilight last night and will make a new blog about that later. I'm also going to see Creation Fest tonight, which is like, 9 christian bands: Thousand Foot Krutch, Kutless, KJ-52, Fireflight, Run Kid Run, Worth Dying For, Pillar, Esterlyn, and Capital Light. I'm sooo super duper excited for that!
But that's pretty much all the interesting things going on in my life.
OH! Next week is Thanksgiving! I get the whole week off, wait no, that's not true. I have a science test on Monday. Oh joy.
I'm excited about thanksgiving too though, because, I get to see all my cousins: Patrick, David, Jeremiah, Katherine, Tyler, Riley, Joshua, Kristina, Brittany, Cassidy and Ethan. Wooo, that's alotta cousins. I also get to break the stupid diet on thanksgiving and just stuff my face. I'm going to gain all the weight back. LOL.
I'm kinda sad that soccer is over for the season though. I'm also kinda happy about it, because I'm lazy. But then I hate just sitting there and doing nothing. Wowsa I'm weird.
Chyea
More later

So yesterday....

yesterday was aiight.... i dont..exactly remember what i did
mostly school then went home and my mom got home early
and it was funnish
me and my brother decided we are going to make a video blog thing
me my brother and my best friend monica
my brother will mostly be behind the camera but im going to upload all the vids soon
even the mess ups
which are hillarious
it took us like 20 times to get it right
but yeah
so that should be up later
also i decided im gonna get my hair cut again
and more of an emo scene thing than i had last time
i hated the way i got it cut last time
and its finally growing out XD
anyway i was hoping to get it a little longer but its bugging me also i need to dye it
not sure what color
black
and maybe blue and green
like a turquoise and a lime green maybe
but i am looking up hairstyles right now and i will probly put them up here later
im on lunch right now bout to have pizza
yum yum

New Stuff

So I have some new stuff.

deviantart- http://www./abrokenbeauty.deviantart.com yeah pictures poems stories.. stuff like that

youtube- http://www.youtube.com/user/abrokenbeauty on youtube i will be doing a video blog soon hopefully starting later today

facebook-http://www.new.facebook.com/profile.php?id=506857787&ref=profile just pictures and stuff

Quizilla-

email- kittyrouge@mail2teen.com

yahoo- kitty_rogue_orange

aim- ashbroken

Band names (from my old blog)

this is from my other blog
but i thought i could put it up here

SOOOI was really bored and made up so band names! (heh what do you think?)
Check it:
Belindas crushing
Fond Hearts
Crushing void
Infected nightmares
Our bloody Trauma
The Broken Kiss
Static Pulse
Cruel Corpse
Satanic Angel
Broken Screams
Unbroken Oath
Deadly Desire
Running Eyeliner
Black Rose
Severely Depressed Zone
Angelic Scars
Velvet Rain Drops
A Beautiful Disgrace
Twisted Illusions
Deranged Insanity
Black Hearted Lovers